Well, it certainly has been a very long time since, I last posted here. Alot has happened in my life. Too much to go into, at this point. I wanted to address an issue that lays heavy on my heart. I have been taking some time off from, the graphic world I love so much, to take care of me. I am trying, to better my soul; mind; body; and spirit. God has given me, many blessings in the past few months. The one most important to me is,his unconditional love and care. He has shown me, that I am, more than just another face. I am important to him!!! He is important to me!
A mirror was held, up to my face and I didn't like what I saw. First, I allowed doubt and fear to creep back into my life. I had encounters with these two guys before. They are evil and must be destroyed! LOL! Don't think I am losing it people! I am fine!!! I discovered just how much, God expects of me and how much I expect of myself. I was tired of just getting by. No more hiding in the shadows, watching everyone else live, life.
"This isn't me, I cried!" I am a fun loving, out-going, love to make people laugh sort of gal! What happend? I tell ya what happened. Stress, confusion, intense denial, self doubt, flooded my soul. There I was, layed out on the floor like a wet noodle. "What am I gonna do?" God began a work in me at that moment. He has shown me a rainbow through the storm. I have been a christain for many years. No, I am not that old!!! Stop it! LOL I won't tell you my age, so stop asking? LOL! This is the first time in years I allowed such events to take place. I felt I was always so strong and well- protected. Don't underestimate the devil. He is always lurking about , waiting to snatch you up and shake the dickens out of your faith. God intervened!!! My finances, my health, my work, my home life, my personal life, were all being attacked. I cried out to him, who I blieve in so much, to heal me and take this bitter cup away. He has given me answers!!! He has given me the power to fight. He has provided me with a renewed strength not to run from it but to face it head on. He has equiped me with his word that no one can destroy me. I choose to stand and not fall by the way side. Life is beautiful! We are all beautiful in his eyes. Praise God he lives!!! Because he lives, I can face tomorrow. He began to show me I needed to get healthy on the inside and the out. I began working out, eating the right foods. It is paying off! This morning I got into clothes, I coudn't fit into a few months ago. I walked down the sidewalk, feeling great! As I watch the inches melt away, each day I am reminded , "Hard work, discipline and love can conquer anything. I am conquering my demons. I am happy! I see a new me rising up and I am thankful! The inside is getting a make over too. God sees the inside. He isn't worried about what we wear, how our hair looks, what color lipstick we have on. He wants to know our soul is in check, our hearts are right with him. These are the things to concern ourselves with. To all my gal pals out there. Please, know this: You are incredible! You are so beautiful! God made you the way you are. Do what is pleasing to him. Don't ever allow anyone to make you feel you aren't worthy!!! You are special!!! Don't allow the world to tell you , you don't matter. You do!!! I appreciate all my friends! You are the best! Thank you for everything you do. Love, love, love you! God bless you